Excellent writing of your journey.
I strongly believe that when we get hit by a challenge like loss of job or grief or you know putting on weight the first thing that you must work is on ourselves. As a highly career oriented woman when I was victim of downsizing of my company and I lost my job, I did go through emotional roller coaster rides. What helped me was reading and taking action. What I mean by this is I studied Louis Hay's book "you can heal your life", "meditations to heal your life" and "money is my friend" by Phil Laut. These books saved my life and enriched my mind body and spirit to move on and lead a peaceful, happy and meaningful life.